Yeah definitely. That's exactly it: I want to deal with this. But I have felt better today, having thought about it and talked about it.

But like I said, it's like I attribute past problems to the current situation. And along with that, I haven't really gotten to know my roommate(s) (although it is primarily one roommate that I'm concerned about) better, which makes it seem worse in my mind, like all I can do is imagine it being bad (etc., if that makes sense).

But I haven't felt like myself lately, probably not only because of this. I haven't felt the self-reliance I've been building up, and like I said I've felt like kind of a child. I feel like I should isolate myself for a while -- I feel like it could contaminate my relationship with my girlfriend as well, possibly introducing selfish thinking or dependence or something. But like I said, I've been feeling much better after tonight.