Oh, but with sleeping, it seems to be especially sensitive when I'm in a new situation. Like, I'm partiularly demanding about getting enough and exactly when I need it, in particular circumstances. Also lately I have been going to bed earlier. Sometimes in the past, I have dealt with not being able to sleep with just saying "screw it" and staying up until I just pass out, but I feel like in this situation that wouldn't necessarily be helpful since it feels like some of the aspects (roommates) are out of my control.

But with sleep, man the other night when my roommate had people over at 3:30 and I woke up, I did feel out of control and desperate. But I noticed later that I didn't think about leaving and going somewhere else (giving up/in?). My girlfriend was with me though, and she was aware about it before I woke up. But I feel bad too, and cautious, because as I said, I don't want these "old" out-of-control feelings to taint anything.