thanks wantoheal .. i do need emotional support .. i get scared when i dissociate and do things that i cannot recall ..i keep getting told things that i do - like going places that i swear i never been ...and not knowing my system enough to know who went? my body obviously does things without my knowledge so i try hard not to go places anymore. total blackouts .. how do you deal with this when it happens? how can you defend yourself when you talk to ppl about things and meet ppl then later find that you were totally not there?
i am just all inside today and hurting.