thanks EM. You're so very sweet.

Today i feel stronger... better... i know a lot of that is the change in my hormones.. i will feel pretty good for the next week or so. But i HAVE to believe i can do this.. i HAVE to not be scared of myself.

i am bigger than this. i can beat this. %#@&#! life... %#@&#! the forces that brought me this negative energy to face. Bring it on. i have walked on a shattered pelvis (no lie)... i have faced personal horrors... i have been terrorized and come out the other side. i can do this.

BRING IT ON.