I believe we may be social, but we have different levels of interest and tolerance for social.

I was pushed and pushed and pushed to be social as a kid. I hated it and I've told T to please do not do that with me. We already had talked about how I am a homebody. I have many interests and I can go out and interract but I like my solitude and I'm so thankful that T accepts that part of me.

I sometimes picture life as like theater. Some are content to be in the audience; some want to dance, some want to act, some want to direct,some want the spotlight on them at all times, some prefer drama, others comedy. I would like to be off-stage--involved behind the scenes but contributing meaningfully.

Although I know I enjoy and need and treasure solitude, I also know I've turned it into isolation, a whole' nother ballgame. And that is what I need to work on. To have people in my life, to have balance, so that the solitude is a meaningful time of being with myself and a time of reflection. So that it's solitude and not an avoidance of fears and things.

Anyway that's one way I think about invisibility with me.