i have to write this i am in a very bad place. not many understand i dont think. its ok to post her because i am a survivor or trying to be. Does anyone else suffer when someone leaves, like a member of the family. It hurts so bad that my family is apart even though i have had days when my kids aggrevate ..... i didn't realise Dani going away would be so traumaatic. i have to be strong and i am proud of her for doing this and i love her more than anything but this is my first orn child leaving home, maybe to never live with us again properly .... feel so ...... deep deep sorrow....... feel like i'm on the edge .... i have no .... control is the wrong word ... i cant keep her safe any more..... she is a woman and i feel like my heart is breaking in two .... please try and understand i thnk i am feeling this way because i am so insecure and i have always protected her and now i cant and i'm scared someone will take advantage of her ..... i wont be there for her like my mum wasn't for me ..... i cant bear not being there if she is sad or lonely or unsafe ..... i cant cope with these terrible feelings....... i think i am losing it ....... it's not even been a day ...... i cant see to write anymore

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