sometimes people dont understand and think the worst of you .... i am not a bad person. people think i am but im not. i just dont know how to be sometimes its hard when guidance has been sparse really. i didn;t turn to drugs or anything bad. i try so hard to be ok, i try so hard just to try and be liked and when people dont like me it hurts inside so much because i try not to hurt people unless they hurt me and i get defensive. its hard when people yuou have loved leave and or ignore andwhen your parents dont give a %#@&#!. if my own parents dont give a %#@&#! how can i love myself because i they hated me i must be a horrible person musnt i ..... that's why i try to get everyone to like me becuase i need love so very much ..... i need affection and reassurance all the time and maybe i drove my daughter away because of my problems......