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Does it work????

Been depressed for a long while, since my delsuions and conspiracies started to take over my mind and chased away all my friends...

The doc has never said I am depressed but I know I am, severley. However, I refuse meds point balnk, I refuse to have my mind dampened and my personality taken away, I beleive this is what they want to do.

My family reckon I should try taking St John's Wort, has anyone had any positive results from it???

The delusions are one thing but the depression fuels them... If I was happier, maybe they'd not be so much of an issue and maybe I wouldn't spend half my life building the conspiracy against, maybe I'd spend half my life building thoughts on ways to make my life better???

Cheers

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Hi giri,

I chose to take the non-meds route myself.

St John's Wort maybe helped a little, but self help has been best for me. By that I mean relaxation, meditation groups, being around calm and strong people - and Psych Central.

You mentioned the delusions and conspiracies.

Depression (like old age) never comes alone. I believe that depression talks to us, and we have to work to ignore it. For me, there were some people around me who were not helping, and a big job was to move towards more supportive and reliable people in 3d, and to trust them.

I have three solid friendships now, with people of the same age, gender and background as me. We have all been through illness and survived. We know the stories, and we don't need to talk about it, or prove anything to each other. We can take time out, or meet up, without any pressure.

It's not easy, and sometimes I get a stab of paranoia, but I know when it's happening and I can put it to one side and move on past it. From reading your post it sounds like you are fully aware of the situation and that's a really positive thing IMHO.

I want you to know that we can put our lives back together, just slowly, one step at a time. It can be done.

Cheers, Myzen.