I got unemployment insurance so I'm going to take some time to hopefully get a job that doesn't suck quite as bad all my previous ones.

I'm just really clueless as to the world of options open to help for my disorder. Not trying to be dramatic, but I'm really worried by some of the things I've been thinking lately these last few years and they get worse and worse and more and more frequent and vivid.

Really not sure were this is going, but I have to admit I'm not liking it. I feel like I am approaching some point of no return and would like something there for me before I get there.

Honestly clueless to what that is or how a guy like me can get it.