Talk to a counsellor, Black Tears.

A social worker can help too.

Maybe you and your hubby need a break from fighting, so someone might want to rise up and be the hero for the both of you and refrain from the arguing, as hard as that might be with emotions involved until things calm down, at least.

I know it's hard to pull away, but you could start saying positive things to your husband instead of replying in usual way during a confrontation.

You can try your hardest to make him feel better about himself, as it sounds like the gift you will receive back from your own act of giving this.

Also, you could rent movie that he would like also, make some popcorn, leave the mess alone, and sit close and become friends again.

All is not lost. It's just tiring during these bumpy patches.

You will make it right somehow, even if you need to call .merrymaids' to clean for you ... maybe if he sees that people get paid to clean a house because it is actually a real job - then he might value the money for his family and start pitching in.

Either way, you might benefit from seeing someone because you are unhappy and that is the real concern, isn't it?

I'm sorry you feel so sad. It can be very scary too. Seek some relief for the depression either thru your MD. and get a referral for a good counselor, okay.

It will get better. It will turn out alright. You will be alright.

Love,
Night