About an hour or so after my last post, my husband apologized for the fighting and asked me to lay with him for awhile..It was nice we talked and cuddled. Im in such pain and I do realize that everything makes me upset because im so unhappy.. I left my family when I was 16 and never went back..growing up my whole life my family treated me cruel, hurt me emotionally and physically..I am so hurt that my parents treated me this way and to this day when I try to call just to say hello (I have moved a couple hours away to a new state from them) they always seem to busy and dont want to talk to me. I dont understand why my family hates me growing up I was not a bad kid I did not get in trouble (trust me I knew better). When I was 8 yrs old my mother moved us away from my hometown and I never saw my real father again..When I say parents thats my mother and stepfather. I often wondered through the years about my real father, and found him once and he never replied to my letter..I was devastated, its been 18 years since ive seen or heard from my real father..A month ago I located him again and I have located his sister also. I sent them both letters and on sat I got a letter back from his sister. In the letter she says nothing about my father at all, just some memories of me and she told me about his brother my uncle..Once again the letter I sent to him was unanswered.. I just dont understand why he wouldnt want to know me...I dont understand what I did to deserve everything that I have been through....I dont know what to do