okay, this is weird. personally, i wouldn't post this but it keeps happening.
about 2-3 months ago, my best friend died, and something happened that freaked me out. i was laying in bed the night after his funeral and as soon as i got settled in, i looked at the end of my bed and saw my dead friend there. he was just standing there staring at me. i was actually so stunned at the sight that i didnt even say anything. he was there forever just staring at me. finally, i got up and walked over to him, but as soon as i went to grab him, he dissapeared.
now, im schizophrenic, so im used to seeing things, but this hallucination keeps repeating itself. for the last couple months i keep seeing my dead friend randomly. see him everywhere. even last night, i was at this computer and he was sitting in the chair next to me just staring at me. its just freaky.
i wouldn't normally worry about this but the majority of my hallucinatons neve repeat themselves, and the ones that do only repeat 1 or 2 times, and never for 2 months and on.
this isnt the first time that this happened though. about 6 yrs ago, when i was 8, i lost a best friend, i was actually there when he died, it was horrible (i posted this awhile back) and i saw him too after his funeral, but not as vividly as this time around.
i guess, i just need some help with this, just asking for some way to get this to stop. i dont like this at all. its like my mind has found the best way to torture me and decided to do it.
now, i already talked to my T about this, she changed my meds and asked me to write about my friend but it hasnt helped at all. if anyone can help then please do.