i'm not sure why you think it 'shouldn't' bother you. i don't know many people who it wouldn't bother... it would surely bother me. i'm not happy when my therapist gets sick or when he takes a (fairly rare) week off. i'd surely be even less happy if he kept changing my sessions around and / or cancelling them on fairly short notice.

i hear that you feel that your therapist is a really kindhearted person and that she is trying to help people who really need her. when i hear that... i feel really small, though. like... in comparison to that i don't matter - and i feel sad. i surely don't want to feel jealous of all these other people who need her too. perhaps... perhaps people who need her more than me... but i'm just so sad that she isn't there for me and maybe (very reluctantly) a little jealous of those other people.

not sure how you feel... but i guess i'd think it would be understandable that you would feel like that. that is how i'd feel at any rate...

is there any way that you could talk to her about this? it sounds like she does have a lot going on... but the thing is... maybe it is time for her to have a look at how she is distributing her time. scary... but i guess... it might be best to know?