Thanks you all for all of the advice. And, you're right...I need to do this..I need to tell them.

Well, something new has happened also. I truly think one of my friends is leaving me. I haven't told either of them yet. The one said that it hurts him too much to see me hurting so much and not doing anything. He wishes he could help me, but over the past year and a half he hasn't been able to. He has helped me though. He's referring to my eating problem, in his words "how intoxicating your family is", my t, how I hate myself and view myself, and that's about it I think.

I tried talking to him..but he still won't talk to me. So that's that I suppose. Do I still tell him? Or if it's ending anyhow should I keep it to myself?

I know I still have one other person to tell.... *sigh*

I can't help thinking that I deserved this...deserved for him to leave me. You know the saying "What goes around, comes around..."

I wish I was a better person, and I'm trying to be. I still have to fix things in the past though.

Thank-you all for your support and advice. I read the posts here, and I usually don't know what to say. It makes me sad b/c I want to help you guys too. I can offer hugs though. Take care.

~flier