I found out where Jonny came from. He was "born" in a really nasty car accident he was in when Jon was about 12. Over a dozen reconstructive surgeries and a year or more of rehab before he could walk on his own again. He's still got scars and a limp...and that's when Jonny came. He handled the accident. He was the one lying on the ground in a pool of blood...He protected Jon then and ever since. He was the first alter and he's been around a lot longer than anyone else thought. Poor kid has really been through the wringer.

I'm not scared of him anymore. I've got a lot of respect for him(!) and I have no intent or desire to cross him, but I'm not afraid of him now. Neither is Jon, since Jonny told us his story. Jonathan is scared, though. Why would he be scared of part of himself?

Jonathan and Jonny were watching Jon dream last night. I could hear them talking about it. I think it was a good thing. Jonny is starting to understand about love and friendship. He just never understood before because he didn't believe in it because he never experienced it.

On another note, Jonathan wants to go out on a "date" with me. At first, I thought it might be an OK idea...but now I'm not sure. They are all the man I love, but they still don't all get along. Jonathan has told me before that he's been fighting Jon recently because he wants to spend more time with me. We thought setting aside some time just for him might help, but I wonder if that might not make the conflict worse. I mean, what if he decides he doesn't want to give up? Any suggestions?