(((silversparrow)))

It is very scary to look at this, because it reminds me of myself so much ://

I'm going to say something that I always want someone to say to me when I feel down:

It's going to be alright.

I know it sounds cliche, but I don't mean to say that you should suppress your feelings and all that stupid crap that people say when they try to make you feel better, when in fact, they just make you feel worse.

Trauma is really difficult to work out on your own. And it takes so much time and so much patience, too. I should know, I still haven't had the courage to work on my trauma stuff. They say I can't, because I'll go into psychosis. But it's not true. I'm just putting it off.

I also relate to the unability to talk about emotions. For me, it's because I'm afraid my friends or anyone who is listening doesn't want to hear it. That it's too intense for them. That they will tell me that I am a freak, tell me to go away.

Anyway, enough about me.

You feel terrible now, but you know - you are reaching out here, and that is the smart thing to do. You are taking care of yourself. Please keep doing so, because you matter, and you are worthy.

There's always a new start. I told someone here (can't remember who) that it takes time to replace the old ways to relieve pain with new ways.

Wishing you everything good. :-)