greygoose, i do feel for you and your position. i really think you should see a therapist and possibly and psychiatrist for meds. i think it would make all the difference in your world?

are you opposed to therapy and/or p'docs? we've never really discussed this, but i think they BOTH would benefit you greatly. i had to eventually seek out help when my anxiety became to much for me to deal with on my own.

please consider this.

kd