I got it sqrl and I think that it's pretty characteristic of bipolar disorder. To me, it seems that the worse my manic state gets, the harder I'm bound to fall. I do my best to NOT feed either state of mind or to even struggle with it, but more or less let it run it's course and minimize the ride when my mind decides to flip. Sorry, swrl, if I'm straling your glory from your post in the BP forum, you just put into words what I couldn't. To answer your question (one which I find interesting btw), right now I'm struggling to learn how to ride out my illness... to learn to live with it. Sometimes I do very well, and others I crash and burn hard. I'd have to say that for now, the roller coaster is still in charge.