I have a session with my T thursday night to work with a angery suicidal alter. I was just released from the hospital a few weeks ago and everything had settled back down. Well I've had a million things going on these past 2 weeks to keep me busy. But the closer the appointment comes the worse things are coming up to the surface again. I don't want to be back in the hospital. But my T thinks that we have to deal with this alter now, so that things don't get out of uncontrol again. But I'm so scared of what's going to happen during the session. T said he was making plans to help her express her anger in a safe way. Just so scared. I know this is something we need to do, because we are stuck and can't move on in therapy until this alter is safer. Sometimes I want to say I'm never going back and I quit T. But I think my T would bug and fire out of me if I tried to quit. I just want to crawl under a rock and hide
Monty