((((((((((((((((gentle hugs))))))))))))))))))))))

I am so sorry for your loss. I have lost 2 very loved and special people in my life to cancer. The first was my beloved grandfather, the second my step father. He was only 49. Grief is a long process. You will feel sad, angry, hurt, hopeless, helpless, depressed and abandoned in a way. Only time will heal you my friend. This is the thing about grief. Maye grief councelling will help you to deal a little better ..... you have lost the most important person in your life ... my best friend has just lost her mother too and little things will trigger off your sadness. You are entitled to grieve, cry, be angry ....

My grandad died when i was 16 and i still cry for him a lot. ut the pain eases gradually ..... please take care of yourself, my heart goes out to you and i wish you well. Let yourself cry, howl, scream, whatever .... talk to her still, i believe she is still with you, but that is my belief.

with love and sympathy, Jinnyann xoxoxoxoxoxoxo