i never really considered myself to have a problem with eating, very rarely if i felt i had majorly over eaten i might make myself sick or try going for a run. but lately ive been making myself sick more and more often.
today i threw up twice and yesterday was 3 times, and yet i still feel like i eat too much dispite when i think about it i usually only have one meal a day and thats in the evening, i sometimes have lunch but thats only if i meet a friend for it or my mum places something in front of my at midday, even then ill eat half and just say im not hungry.
basically i think ive gone from SI to sort of bulimia
people i mention to that i think i have a fat stomach say im just being silly and that im fine. but i dont feel fine :S
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