i was better... I found religion and I fell in love with a guy, and he felt the same and told me...
i hadn't cut in weeks.
now, all of a sudden things got so much more complicated, and we stopped talking. I felt horrible, and i still didn't.
that was a week ago. a few days ago, everything in my life caught up with me, and i cut.
my 'friend' told him without my permission that I was cutting, and he confronted me. she told him it was all because of him. there are a lot of scars there, and only ONE was from after I met him. and he was so upset about it, and he hugged me really tight, and told me he was sorry. and stalked away, i had never seen him so sad. i asked her what she told him, and i got soo hysterical when she told me. i told her that wasn't the truth and to fix it, i couldn't let him hurt after this. he had left before she could. now he doesn't even know the truth, and i can't set it straight until next tuesday.

i don't want to hurt him anymore... but the temptation to cut is so strong right now... and i don't know what to do...