I am sorry if this is not in the correct forum but I wasn't sure where to put it.

I had my performance review at work today and while it was not a disaster my boss thinks I am not always coping so well at work.

My work is of a really high standard and that is acknowledged / reflected in my review. My client relationships, etc, are good and I have had some impressive feedback. SO it's not my 'performance' per se. I also do quite a bit of 'good' stuff around social committee organisation, etc.

However I have been a bit 'flappy' lately - sometimes I have pushed out my deadlines more than I should (only by a day or two). I have been to several other cities for work purposes in the last few weeks. I was asked to take on a project at the last minute and turn it around really fast. I did but took the two days extra (over my weekend) to finish it off.

I feel like everything has been a bit much and the whole depression thing is kinda why sometimes my head is not in the best space and I maybe do forget small things / get a bit behind at times - sometimes I work a LOT better than other times so I sort of have to work as hard as I can when I can. I have days I can't really get out of bed but (while I do not have manic / hypomanic episodes) there are days when things flow very well and I feel like what I am producing is very good.

Sooo ... my boss's solution is sessions with a 'coach'. Sort of life coachy I think - working with finding ways to cope with stress and improve organisation etc (but is not a counselor per se).

Work would pay - the sessions are around $200 each and my boss has suggested going half a dozen times and then a few follow up ones. She said it is an investment by the company in me as she / Human Resources etc feel that it is worth it and will also help prepare me for my next promotion etc, and her term is that I am a 'star' and need to maximise that - but she feels some little things are standing in my way. She also said she feels I sometimes lack confidence in my work even though I should not at all be worried about it. I guess that is true - I have been quite anxious about presentations lately and I never used to be.

HERE is my problem: I know that my slightly irregular work patterns, etc, are probably all due to stupid depression.

I do not want to let on that this is more likely to be the issue and leads me to have some scrambled days.

I don't want work to waste the $$ on this sort of thing when I know what the problem is.

I also don't want to appear that I am not being proactive about the situation.

My boss really tried to normalise it for me - our HR Executive Director goes to this woman who is being recommended, herself. Our division's Executive Director goes to a similar sort of person. It is more about professional development I guess ...

I don't really know what to do. Should I just sort of give in and do it to seem like I am wanting to get ahead as best I can? Or do I work even more and make sure even when I am having bad times I still double and triple check that everything is OK, and use that as evidence I don't need to do this thing?

I'm so confused and sorry for such a long post. It isn't really anything I can run by real life friends.

thank you.