Hi Rhapsody,
first of all thank you for your reply. I've answered to your questions.

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One question I have to ask is....... Were you ever sexually abused as a child?

I ask this question as it could be the core reason you are feeling as you do...... old wounds being resonated?

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No, I never was.

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Second question would be... Have you ever been made to feel dirty about sex due to religious up bringing?

I ask this question as I have dealt with people that were made to look upon sex as a ugly thing - something that only perverts part take in.... and this is not true.

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My therapist has deep religious convictions and I was told by him that I should prefer abstinence rather than having sex with people, but I'm not the kind of guy who looks people for sex or has sex with a different guy every night. That is why I've answered him I've always felt free and as I'm an adult and my partners are adults too and we both know what we're doing, having respect for each other, abstinence was not the way for me.

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Third Question.... Do "YOU" feel dirty about being gay due to what the public eye says?

If yes... then you and you alone will have to come to terms with who you are and know that you are lovable no matter what you sexual orientation is... and until you do this you will forever be living in some else's insecurity.

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Well I came out to my parents five years ago and eight years ago to my friends. I did that because I wanted they knew the "real me" and when I did it I didn't care who would have accepted me.
But now I have to admit that my sexual orentation brings me to have fear I'm gonna lose closest people to me, if I don't "turn straight" (ex. my father or my sisters). I also know that my family should love me unconditionally, but what if this does not happen? What if people who are the world to me cannot accept me for who I am? Is this, in your opinion, the reason of my issues?

Hope to hear from you soon.
S.