(((((((((((RozG))))))))))))) It's scary stuff. Absolutely understandable why it scares you. The thing my T says to me is try to remember that everything has already happened, even if it doesn't feel like it. Knowing only gives us more power.

Acceptance is hard. I vacillate between accepting that I have DID and denying it to its fullest. I switch between being scared to death and being completely numb or angry.

It takes time, all of it. I hope you feel better today. Take good care. I hope you can do something special just for you today.