It has not been good for me for awhile and has gotten to the point where I can no longer cope. So I am going on short-term disability starting Monday and taking a leave of absence from my job, while I adjust meds, consider going inpatient, and figure out what's next for me from here. I figure when you start having panic attacks at the mere thought of having to go to work, it's time to take action.

I'll be looking into voc rehab and federal disability as well.

I am not very good at doing things that are good for me -- it always makes me feel guilty to take care of myself. So this is really, really scary for me . Plus, I feel terrible for sticking my already-stressed coworkers with extra work.

Can somebody tell me this is OK?