For the first several months after my mom's passing, I felt as if she were just gone for a little while and would be back eventually. Now I've come to terms with the reality of the situation. However, every so often I have dreams where she has 'returned' from wherever she has been, and I wake up feeling really confused.
I think it's entirely natural to feel bad enjoying yourself so recently after your mother's passing. It gets easier with time. I found that the best thing for my grief was spending time with other people, and if I ever needed to , allow myself to feel sad and cry.
Realize that this will get better with time.Allow yourself to feel what you need to feel and take good care of yourself (eat well, get plenty of sleep, and exercise if you can). My thoughts are with you.
Take care,
 
J
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"One by one, as they march, our comrades vanish from our sight, seized by the silent orders of omnipotent death. Very brief is the time in which we can help them, in which their happiness or misery is decided. Be it ours to shed sunshine on their path, to lighten their sorrows by the balm of sympathy, to give them the pure joy of a never-tiring affection, to stregthen failing courage, to instill faith in hours of despair."
-Bertrand Russell
With love and hope,
<~/J\~>
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