What I meant was that nobody was replying me. No hospital for me. Never going to go that route. I won't be locked up. It's not the way ppl here described it would be. The last time I went to the ER, about a week ago, I asked the pdoc and psychologist who evaluated my state of mind at that time. They said I want to stay out as much as possible, that it's a very horrible place to be, I wouldn't want to be there. Well, that was enough to confirm my initial feelings. I won't go, I won't.