if life were a football game, you are somewhere between opening kick-off and overtime... the game is still on, you havent failed... try to envision your future, healed self.. that person is now sending you kind and caring hopes and thoughts that you will find your way thru the labyrinth... and you will if you practice safe and healthy habits.... you are on a good course already and you've learned many lessons or you would never have made it this far.... hang on to the belief of future healed you and let that spirit become your guide...