i dont think so many people are wrong griffe, you do matter and your suffering does matter... no one of us wants to feel again as you do now, we dont want you to feel so horrible either... we grew thru this stuff and it was really painful... there is something about yourself that only you know about... only you know what it is that keeps you coming back here everyday to share the load with us.. the community is here and doing its part.... because you matter.. if you didnt, all these people are wrong... they seem pretty insistent to me... consider it?