thanks everyone - trying to hold myself together. going to an intake apnt about housing (maybe section 8, i dunno). am nervous.

i do like the idea of smaller pieces. seems like t said something like that, too - but i was too overwhelmed to hear it. because that translated to "this is going to take too long = this will never work."

breathing... trying. I was crying last night and my cat did the cutest thing (he hates it when i cry). We were on my bed and i covered my face with my arm. Well, he peaked under my arm to look at me, and put his chin on the bed so he could keep eye contact with me. Then tried nudging me to come out. So i pet him and when the overwhelm was too much again, i covered my face. Well, he turned his head upside down to look in at me, then started kneeding his paw so that it just touched my nose. It is truly the cutest, sweetest thing he has *ever* done. It touched my heart.