Isn't our connection with pets amazing? I'm glad your cat could give your some comfort when you were hurting so bad.

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because that translated to "this is going to take too long = this will never work."

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I get this. The fear gets to be too much when it takes a long time for something to happen. Because the whole time, your anxiety level is constantly increasing. Maybe that's something else to discuss with T, ways to manage your emotions while you go through the steps for this thing to happen.

I am a listy person, so it helps me to write all the steps in a big decision down and cross them off as I accomplish them. Sometimes I even make separate sub-lists! I do this because it is a way to manage my anxiety, to remember that I *am* accomplishing steps towards my goal. That may not work for you. Perhaps marking in some way each task that you accomplish (and how hard it was) will help make it seem less never-ending?