I haven't been seeing him too long.. a few months.. but it seems so stupid that I just keep pissing and moaning instead of getting out there and making myself useful. I like the guy.. he's cool.. talks like me.... I don't have to censor myself, but I end up walking out of there feeling like more of a babbling idiot than when I went in!
I can't put the icky feeling I have into words... and I don't know if I'm supposed to. It's like I'm LOOKING for things to say.
I just don't want to be ME anymore!
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