(((((silver queen))))) My best thoughts and prayers go out to you at this difficult time. Its hard enough to deal with SI, depression and suicidal thoughts let alone all three at the same time. Just know you would be missed here in Chat and on the Forums. You are such a pleasure to talk with and you have such good advice and comments to offer. So please take care of yourself and continue resisting. Congrats by the way on no SIing for a month. Wow thats terrific.