I haven't seen T in a couple of weeks due to scheduling conflicts. I am having trouble. I am not sure, but I may not want to go back. I feel completely disconnected now, and my appt is another week away. I am angry at the casual attitude T takes about my appointments sometimes. They are very important to me, and it seems like that isn't understood. I want T to care, and I don't feel like he does. We've discussed it and I've been reassured that I am not just another source of income to him, but I just don't know. I want to give up. The whole thing makes me feel desperately alone.