My ex-husband had this problem. He told me he saw red and lost all control. He once told me to leave because he was afraid he would hurt me. He became physically abusive and I had to get a restraining order, but this forced him to get help. He now thanks me, he has a therapist and is doing great with his anger. We are now close friends and I'm glade he got help. You are not alone you just need to learn how to manage it. There is help for you, try to find a therapist that specializes in anger management. Before you get yourself in trouble!