((((Jully)))),
If do know one thing, it's that you are not alone!!!! Our relationship with our Ts are difficult at best. We (well, many of us) want our Ts to be more than they can and this can be excruciatingly painful. I just ranted about that in a post myself. It is a common theme here. Try going to the next session, and I'll bet you will feel better (at least until you get up to leave). The therapeutical alliance is a relationship like none other. If he would just adopt me, everything would be fine. Oh well. Best of wishes to you.