I know I've said it before but I am just so fortunate to have my lovely T.

I've had many T's but none whom I could call anytime for any reason. And certainly none who would call me to see if I'm okay. This evening I called her and left a message. I just told her that I was hurting so much and briefly why and that I was so glad I would see her tomorrow.
Later she called me to see if I was okay. I love her so much.
I am okay, I told T... and I am amazed that I am okay.
I had to say good-bye to someone important in my life for the second time. The first time it nearly killed me and in fact I wanted it to; this time I'm hurting so much but... I know I will feel okay. I think I've internalized this person who has been a source of my feeling cared about, loved by someone.
I'm going to be okay. I can't remember the last time I had such a positive thought while in a crisis.
Smiling through the tears this time.
Thank you T for supporting me through these times and helping me grow