Hi, He(bf) wanted to talk to may more playful side when I was being bumbed that this switching happens. I didn't feel it was an attack or anything, just wanted some fun. I may try since I have awareness and co-conscious most of the time. I'm just really scared. I seem to blank out if I just let things be as they will instead of just trying to remain as much as Me as I can. At least if I struggle to be up front I hear whats going on but not much feel inless I'm really there.
Thanks for all your idea: I will try the Pro's and Con's first, I think.