Soliaree - totally get it. I feel like i need so much more from t and my dr's than i will ever be allowed. This goes beyond attachment - it is like an infant's need of a mother - 24/7 if i am to actually succeed (i need it, and hate it, too).

things seem so very hopeless. I don't want to continue living like this! I don't want to be a burden to my dr's! I don't want to live with mom another year!! But i don't know how to fix it. ...well, not in a manner that is acceptable. I want to give up and call it done. Or really get some severe help- even though i know i would fight it to pretend i am normal that much longer, to deny what i need and fake ok-ness.
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
((((((((((soli))))))))))