Well I have an ex-boyfriend I love him allot but we always break up then go back out and it's really frustrating I really do love him, but I think that it's just me being depressed, but now I could care less about him. Sometimes I think about him but it hurts to know that maybe because of my disorder I'm going to do something stupid and then loose him. Right now we're not seeing eachother, but I've been thinking about calling him because he tried to call and text me about two days ago asking if I would go back out with him. I didn't say no and I didn't say yes because I've never told him or anyone else how I feel because I know that my friends and he will not understand. So I know that he can't handle my lifestyle. I've cheated on him a few times but everytime I would do it I would first think of how much it would hurt him then later when I think of what I did I feel just a little bit of gultiness for bout a minute then after that I don't care. I'm not sure if I'm just coming to my senses or if this is just because of me being depressed. Because I've lost intersest in my family and my friends I try to act like I care, but lately I just haven't been caring at all.