I feel the same way. I was on anti-depressants for about 3 years, and I tried at least 5 or 6 different kinds and different dosages and none of them helped much and all of them had side effects which I couldnt handle (weight gain, no sex drive, no emotions, etc.) they helped with my severe clinical depression for a while but still I didnt even feel like a person anymore.

I have been off anti depressants for over 2 years now. I have been looking into other things and I have tried most of them, but none helped completely. I tried getting exercise, multivitamins, Omega 3, healthier diet, more sun, pretty much everything I can think of. But I havent tried St. Johns wort yet. Im still looking for something that can help me. On top of my depression I also have pretty bad anxiety and went through episodes of psychosis, and panic but all of this is probably connected with eachother.