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one on one therapy for 3 sessions and it just got way to personal for me.

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Mikey,
Sorry to hear that you are struggling. I found one-on-one therapy way too intense for me when I first started. I didn't like the fact that I couldn't bail out of a conversation like you can in other settings. I felt like there was a lot of pressure on me. But I forced myself to endure it.

Do you have anything you can use to motivate you? In my case I used my kids as my motivation. When I was agitated, scared, frustrated and simply just wanting to quit, I though of them and how much they needed a decent parent. I think a lot of people would say that you are supposed to put yourself as the priority, but I can't do that at this point.

I think you have to do whatever you can to get yourself some help. For me the first 9 months of therapy was almost unbearable, but I simply forced myself to go. At one point I thought I was being sadistic and using it to engage in mental self torture. But slowly my T was able to forge a connection with me and I actually like going now.

Enduring the intensity of it has been so worth it.

Maybe you can simply try it again. Maybe set a goal for yourself like... 10 sessions. Say no matter what happens I will force myself to make it through 10 sessions. Hopefully then your T can work some magic in that time and make it less stressful for you.