Thanks everybody. Why don't I feel strong. I feel very fragile. I'm trying to feel like I belong here but I'm having a very hard time with that. I feel like the proverbial black sheep. And my identity has been lost under the thick veil of my current depressive state deep in the abyss. It's engulfed my mind that I can barely see anything else right now. I'm sorry some of you are getting really frustrated with me. I can only see through the eyes of my deep, deep depression. My sig is very descriptive to how I'm feeling.