Unless i'm on a schedule that's ironclad AND written in stone and totally unchangeable, I will always inevitably find a way to ignore those pressing matters, most times unwittingly.

I am concerned about that. About my lack of focus. Today is not a good example of how off-topic I can be because I was up at 6:30 and I've completed a laundry list of chores... but this is how it goes! Sometimes I wake up full of "let's get this done" and I really do get things done and I feel so good and so proud of myself... and other times (most times) I sleep in even if I've had 8 hours sleep...and I get up without washing my face or brushing my teeth, I tend to the girls and then basically walk around aimless and verging on depression because I can't focus and nothing I do seems to make a dent.

But like I said, today I'm in the zone. It's 10 and this is my first break. I'm a stay-at-home-mom. NO, it isn't easy. It would be easier if I knew how NOT to get off topic or how to stay focused.

Writing things down seems to keep me anchored to my list of need-be's. When I'm through with a task and as I'm walking by i'll simply bend down and jot the task down. Sometimes I forget altogether.

And then there's the plague of negativity that happens. Like everything's on a cycle and I can never pinpoint when the starting point is...

So, just wondering if other sahm's or anyone really is affected by something similar, what you might have done to counter it, stories and examples maybe... anything that might help me and make me feel a little less off-my-rocker....?

Just to let you know..I think what I am suffering from is more than simply a case of boredom... this thing that i have has caused major ripples in my marriage... it affects my self-esteem, it keeps me in the house away from society which is not the best thing for my kids.... it's borderline a phobia or disease. So it's really more than just me needing to get a handle on the housework or bill paying... I honestly cannot stay focused and there's all these crazy stupid insane retarded time-consuming totally irrelevant thoughts stubbornly screaming above my common sense that don't make matters easier!

Thanks for listening and posting your thoughts.