I find that I am fearful of what kind of person I will become when and if I am cured or my OCD is resolved, because I have been like this since I was a child. Will I be different than the person I am if I have more confidence and less worry? I know it probably should make me happy to think these things will change, but I am scared that it will change me so much that I will lose my identity or personality, which is what I was protecting in the first place and one of the many reasons I have OCD now.

Because of the strictness of my life and the physical and emotional abuse I faced when I expressed emotions that were contrary to what my parents felt I should be expressing and because my parents were around so much and left me with hardly any choices to make for myself, I created a fantasy world that I lived in most of the time and still live in sometimes to this day. This I feel was to help me function like my parents wanted me to without losing my identity or my personality being something that they created or molded. (I hope that makes sense.)

I was very passive as a child and even though I feel like I've come a long way with changes I've made to my life, I am frightened that I will become a person that I don't want to be. I sort of like the person I am most of the time, except for my glitches, but I'm worried that when those glitches are controlled that I will not be me.

Please help if you can.