You seem to know so much .... i have dissosiative amnesia ....because i was abused under hypnosis and without hypnosis ...... i also have borderline personality and co consciousness .... yesterday was THE worst i've been .... i know what i am doing ... my son came downstairs in the middle of it all and i muttered i was taking dog out .... i sat for an hour in the pouring rain til i felt i could go home ... in that time i remember sitting and crying behind some trees wheere noone could see me ... i didn't want to go home and face my son in this state .... i'mbegining to wonder if anything i do is normal .... i have treasure, who is young and she is with me, inside, but i know when i write about her ..... sort of ... not completely out of it ... then there is a rebellious me .... i was reellious at 15 .... now i dont know who i am or my impulsive behaviour is another part of me .... i am extremely impulsive ..... then i have a side which worries me because i am totally unfeeling sometimes .... like nothing would bother me .... i am so confused .... Kerry xxx(i think)