When I started with T over 6 years ago I was not well, after about 3 years with T we discussed what I wanted to do - become a clinical psychologist. T said, 'ok, we'll have a go...' It is very unusual to have therapy on the NHS as long as I have, so you can see why I thought I was in training etc. At this time I got a job in a school doing therapeutic work with children with special needs. All my therapy was about discussing my work. So, I presumed everything was hunky dory!

I didn't realize that you needed to go to university. It was only recently, when I did a post not long ago in this forum that several members here pointed out that I would have to have been to university to have become a clinical psychologist.

I will say that at no point did my T say that I had qualified... I got on an imaginary horse and believed I had got there! How stupid am I!

But there have been many sessions recently where T has boosted me up and said, 'I had got there and I didn't need to be the Dalai Lama, or need to run the BPS.' Comments like that made me think I'd achieved what I had been working for!

And then I recently rang up about a clin psychologist job and the consultant more or less laughed in my face. She said I need a research doc and slammed the phone down on me. I had already handed in my notice at work, and gradually working out I've been taken to be a fool. Yes I am a fool!