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We care so much about you, we don't want anything to happen to you. I know how right now things are hard and you might feel like you are being weighed down by everything. But this is one of those rough patches. I've only been out of the hospital now for 2 weeks for my 5th time in. Sometimes you just need to take a break and breath a little think about going. You are worth the effort !!!! Sometimes the hardest thing to learn and do is ask for help and know that you are worth someone helping you. Please let someone help you. Call T and let them know how you are feeling and go to the hospital. Trust me on this one. It's not all that bad to just rest and catch your breath there. K? Sometimes I think that they people who have hurt me are winning and still hurting me if I hurt myself. You just can't let them win anymore. Sending you lots a thoughts and hope for you. We are all here for you. Monty