The past few weeks since school ended have been busy but I was telling T this evening that the summer has a different quality to it and I have a hard time putting my finger on it. He said that I don't have experience talking about feeling good. I think he is right.

Even though I am working over the summer I am definitely more relaxed. The surgery I had a few weeks ago is behind me and I am definitely on the mend; my medication issues have evened out and I just plain feel a lot better. The suicidal ideation has greatly diminished and I told him that all the other "stuff" just feels surreal to me now.

I shared with T some of the things that are on my list as alternatives to cutting, when I feel the intense urge. (We have been working on this together.) I told him some (here) have suggested body art pens for tattooing. He goes, "Oh, I like that--with markers?" I told him they have safer pens that you use to make fake tattoos. He said, "let's do that!" I go, "What, write on tattoos?" He goes, "Yeah."

He's really with me on this. Sigh.

Of course I imagined us both tattooing ourselves (and each other). LOL